'Evolution of Trust' Oil on canvas (Detail) by Jhana Bowen
It is inevitable as a human being that sooner or later we find ourselves in some measure of uncertainty. Many resist the unknown. In-fact as I wrote in my last blog, our brains are actually wired to avoid danger and threat.
It is uncommon to find in individuals the willingness to lean in towards such feelings of uncertainty, primarily because uncertainty often causes us to feel unsafe. Particularly in areas of life that involve intimate relationships, money, and the like. Usually any human or animal will opt for the known and familiar over and above the uncertain.
What is it exactly about uncertainty that causes us to feel unsafe? Is it because we lack the stillness of spirit to relax when we are faced with situations that involve some measure of risk?
In my personal experience, stillness has become the bedrock that allows space for uncertainty. The vacillations and the cycles of change can be met with presence. It is meditation that offers solace amidst the mind's conflict with uncertainty. It's stillness that opens the doorway to trusting the changes in life.
It enables me to get another perspective on images that are created on my canvas of life.
Recently, I was listening to an audio conversation from the Self Acceptance Project by Tammie the the founder of Sounds True. She spoke with Jeff Foster who was saying how challenging times transform us when we open to receive the wisdom difficult emotions offer us.
In the artwork "Evolution of Trust' above, an Angel with wings emerges out of the painting from what was once ugly. From the very midst of the unattractive elements beauty is born. Yet, the beauty can only be seen and felt when we embrace all the elements of our lives. When we finally turn up to accept full responsibility for all that is.
The ugliness has it's place, the challenges inspire growth and change. The pain offers us a transmutation, a rebirth. A death of the illusory self out of which the true self can emerge.
The "Evolution of Trust' is about trusting life, about dismantling our ego's script that separates us from all that would support us so we can experience our wholeness.